was with lynn girl, yuquan and leon at town moments ago to collect my pay, have lunch and shop a little. i realised why i didn't survive in SA. i skipped all extra lessons because i'm not motivated to go for class. if the leon and yuquan were in the same class as me, i would go for the lessons even though i hate it because i will wanna see them and go through it together.

i detested staying in school because my boys aren't with me. half the time would be spent sms-ing them during lessons. when they ended school earlier than me, i would skip lessons to meet them. i had a chance to be in meridian with them but i chose SA because i wanted to play hockey. hockey destroyed me. if i had gone to meridian, i would study hard together with the boys. we could discuss work together and help each other.

in life, you cannot make mistakes or wrong decisions. there's really no turning back, especially time, you can never ever turn back time. no way. i had no motivation for school, at least if i was in meridian, i would look forward to see the boys in class which will then make me motivated to go school. ugh. what i've done man.

fuck that person for the photo comment on the 6th photo in my friendster profile.