health checkup today, everything is fine. it's a really chilly day, i have many problems and i miss someone terribly!

one more thing, the boys are really very important to me. if i were to make a choice, it would be them over you though you've always been there since so long ago. i won't allow anyone to jeopardize my friendship with the boys. i'm really sorry and thank you for whatever that i can thank you for all these while.

is everybody going crazy
is anybody gonna save me
can anybody tell me what's going on
tell me what's going on
if you open your eyes
you'll see that something is wrong