just had a talk with the father and the mother, it's been long since i've really sat down for a serious one. you see, there's two types of people in this world, britney spears would say, one type entertains and the other type observes. okay no, two types, one who loves studying, the other hates studying. most of us are the latter, so let's ignore the former totally.

so we can sub-divide this group, those that hate but study like most of you and another group would be my type. you see, the type that hate studying but still study because they are obligated to do so, their parents want them to do so, they want to be successful through education, they follow the role-model system of singapore and maybe they want face?

well, for my type, my group of people, it's different. i hate study and i don't wanna study. i'm not obligated to do so, it's my life. my parents want me to, but then again, my life, my choice. i personally do not feel that education is the only path to success and i definitely don't care about face, who cares? not me. okay, maybe i fear discrimination a little, as the boy with no credentials.

here's the thing, people like me just don't love studying. studying is just not my cup of tea, i like to do things that are practical, like working! studying is practical, but in an indirect way and takes time, i want to be practical straight. i realised after studying for so many years, doing what you love is more important than getting a high pay cheque. it's not that i'm flunging exams or anything but i simply have no interest in studying, like totally zero. studying has become a total chore.

so why am i studying? beats me, i don't have the answer too. maybe because i don't have anything in mind that i firmly want to do? actually i have, but there's many, haven't picked one yet. i wanna be a DJ, i wanna find something unique overseas and sell it here, maybe go learn dancing in a school and take it as a career? really, i'm just not the books type. blame it on my luck, i'm born in singapore, i've been sucked into the system, there's no flexibility, there's no way out without that stinking piece of paper a.k.a certificate.

so many local entrepreneurs, successful ones, all didn't really come through the system. i want to do something, if only i can quit school, i would and go pursue something i truly love. something that will make me smile during weekdays instead of dreading school. i'm not cracking under stress due to my exams tomorrow, but it's just so true, shocking how i'm typing this one day before my paper.

if only someone would be my sponsor. if only i had the capital. i swear i'll quit school, defy my elders at home and pursue something i really love. fuck it.

i told my mum. you let me quit school, you support me, if possible, even support me financially. i will take the time to pick something i really love, begin planning and get started.