i almost couldn't have kids.

before i say anything, let me describe the hardness of a hockey ball. now, take a finger and press your floor. yup, that's the hardness, pure solid. club training just now had a bitter ending between my coach who coached me since i was 9 till now.

we played a training match. being a more senior player in my team compared to the rest, i constantly communicated with them telling them what to do and encouraged them. so my coach tell me i should shout at them less, i replied politely, "i'm just communicating with them and encouraging them." well, he shook his head and looked away, i suppose he felt i was being disrespectful by talking back, politely though. he expects me to just nod my head i guess.

happily i played on. my coach then had the ball, he faced me and chopped the ball high towards my delicate reporductive organs, i dodged in time with the ball hitting my thigh instead. so i thought it was just a mistake and i played on. then my coach walked past me and said, "you better fucking show me some respect." i kept quiet and played on.

that hit at me could have killed me. seriously, that's why hockey is a dangerous game due to the ball hardness and speed of the ball travelling. thus, i confronted my coach after training to ask why he deliverately did that, he replied, "so what?" so i started swearing at him and he wanted to start hitting me, i was clenching my fist already. the others came to stop us in time.

the big boss came and talk to me thereafter. when i was leaving, the big boss was talking to my coach. the big boss better settle this right otherwise i'm gonna take things in my own hands, play for another club and even make a police report coz that shot could have been fatal.

firstly, i wasn't disrespectful in any way so i was surprised my coach said i was. secondly, even if i was disrespectful, my coach shouldn't have taught me a lesson by doing something so dangerous to me, a talk would be good enough. thirdly, i've been respecting him alot though he smokes and drinks alot as a sportsman. you all don't know how swollen my thigh is now man. forget all ties we had since i was 9, i'm not gonna let him off easy.

unhappy with me, face me like a man, be it a fight or anything. don't sneak attack me like this. bastard.