how wonderful can november start out? school training was fine, quite pleased with myself even though i haven't touched my stick for quite awhile. then all the shit happened.

losing a loved one with full of regrets and guilt. worst thing ever in my life.

maligned for something i didn't do. why would i do something that i won't stand to gain? in fact, i may even stand to lose coz it means messing with my best friend. senseless accusations.

please, someone out there, wake me up when november ends.

i wanna sleep.

fuck.